Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for all the beautiful comments and e-mails you sent after my last post. I don't think I can accurately express how deeply your words comforted me.
Blogging about decorating is a funny thing. I write a post about a room makeover, and I look forward to seeing my reader's comments. "Love the lamp," "that rug makes the room," "beautiful color." Readers type their feedback quickly and go about their day, and probably don't realize that their words make me happy, bring me a smile, a validation, and motivation to keep blogging.
I wasn't sure I should write about losing Sadie. I was feeling terribly guilty about her death, and as silly as it sounds, I think I was suffering from some level of post traumatic stress disorder.
But, boy am I glad that I let it all out on the blog! Not only was writing about her therapeutic, but your shared experiences, kind words and prayers really pulled me out of a dark place. I joked with my sister that she was my grief counselor, and I had to call her every day for a therapy session. We marveled at all of your sweet comments... how so many of them made us cry, but how all of them were so understanding and compassionate.
Although "thank you" doesn't quite express my appreciation, I am so grateful for your comments when I needed them most.
I've gone through some crazy emotions in the last month... guilt, sadness, anxiety. Then I became obsessed with checking petfinder.com and the humane society website for a dog who needed us NOW. I came very close to adopting a 13 year old retired service dog. But, I think God intervened and thought to Himself, "let's slow this crazy train down," because I am finally feeling at peace to just leave things alone for awhile. When the time is right to bring in another four-legged friend, we'll know. I hope :)